Ask anyone what it’s like to parent and own a business and be a stay at home mom and run a household and be a soccer coach and all the other things associated with all of it, and they will tell you, as I will tell you that it’s NUTTY!!! It’s a life, while rewarding and worth it, that is tough and sometimes you wonder when the madness will ever end,,, or at least slow down a little. Here we are, approaching the holidays, and I have this little angst-y feeling in my guts. Christmas has always been one of my favorite holidays. I love sending out cards, writing the family newsletter, baking, wrapping, decorating, and just getting in the “spirit” in general. But owning and operating a retail business around the holidays is enough to make one go on medication. Point blank.
My husband, who supports my business and what I do, and picks up the slack in a way that I’ve never seen a man do before, is awesome. My parenting class last night, we discussed how some of our hubbies don’t have the same expectations as we do, being the moms. They don’t come home every night from work with a mental checklist as to what should be done upon their arrival home, or of things that should’ve probably been done by now (while checking the watch); but some of them just take for granted the things that DO get done. Not really thinking about it that much. For instance…. Kids are good, check, house is clean, check, dinner is almost ready, check, phone calls answered, check, emails answered, check, assembly and shipping done, check, dog fed, check, all fish fed, check, etc etc etc.. It just gets done. However, I really do wish there was a couple of extra hours in the afternoon. The days F L Y by. One minute I look at the clock and it’s 8am and then the next time I look, well, it’s time to put the kids to bed. And the only thing I can hope for, is that everyone goes to bed happy. Totally getting off track here, I’m such a rambler. And as I sit here and type this, my daughter has the dog locked in the crate and is feeding her goldfish crackers thru the slats and shouting and screaming and my focus is dwindling. I did get some invoicing done this late morning tho’, so I feel that I’ve at least accomplished a little so far today. But it’s only noonish, and stamping must get done sometime this afternoon, otherwise, tomorrows plate will be enough to make me want to puke.
That being said, I’ll leave on this thought. If you own a business, and you are a stay at homer like myself, you live where you work and work where you live and work where you sleep and raise your kids where you work… it’s a mad circle. Most people say, “Ohhhhh it must be so nice to be running your business and being able to be at home with your kids”… Ummm yah,,, not so much. The only benny is that you can work with no bra on and your ball cap backwards. It would be nice to be able to get up in the morning, get ready (and look somewhat decent, not nightmare Alice) and get in an automobile, drive to a place, work amongst adults and then get to drive home, obviously throwing a lunch hour in there somewhere. That would be nice. But then, those of you who do get to do that in your life, would probably want to live the stay at home with your kids and work scenario. Grass is always greener right? I don’t want to sound like I’m not grateful for the fact that I can stay at home with my kids while making money. It’s just that it is tedious and monotonous. And it’s HARD. In fact, I’ve had to get up 4 times for random requests since sitting down to type this paragraph. But I do want to give a shout out to my hubby (who probably won’t even read this), that w/out him and his ability to recognize when I’m falling apart at the seams, will say to me,, “I understand”… even tho’, I don’t really think he quite does. I’d like to see him work and run his daily tasks while being yanked in 50 million directions. Gosh,, I sound so crass today… ;c) It must be the weather, or the fact that I’m having vacation let down. Whatever… I’ll shutup. Off to the basement to stamp for now. Laters..